Happy New Year Everyone! <3
I hope 2018 will be awesome for you all and I’m ready for a new year with new chances and a fresh start once again! 2017 was not the best year of mine but not the worst one either. It was kinda like a “blurr”. I have some great memories from 2017 but I would also say it has been one of the most challenging years for me. I learned a lot about myself in 2017 I feel like. I finally finished my Bachelor in Software Engineering and I started on my masters which is the biggest accomplishment of 2017. It meant a lot to me that I proved to myself that I can do this. I’ve always felt like studying is a pressure because I was behind with my studies but this year I started not to care that much. When people pointed out that I’m behind with my studies or just that I’m not where I’m supposed to be with my life in general because of my “age”, my confidence and motivation in studying and just in life got easily shaken at first. But then I realized I should never let other people’s opinions get to me about how my life should me. Where I am in life or what I study or if I’m done with studying or whether if I’m settling down or not, doesn’t define who I am as a person. That is one of the biggest lesson I’ve learned. I’ve learned to not care about other people’s perception of life cause that will not give me any happiness at all. No one should tell you how you should live your life and also you have to make that point clear for whomever tells you how you should live your life. I’m tired of “I should” and I want more of “I want to do this because this makes me happy” in 2018 than “I should do this because everyone tells me that’s the right thing”.
As I mentioned I learned a lot about myself in 2017. I learned about how I should set boundaries for people. I learned how to say no. I learned to prioritize my needs first. I learned to forgive (still working on it though). I learned to be vulnerable. I learned to accept my flaws a little bit more. I learned to connect with my feelings about however I feel. I usually will pressure myself to be happy and positive but this year I gave myself time to also not be okay or to be sad. I’m not saying 2017 has been totally sad at all but we all have our inner “demons” that we fight against. We all have some inner battles we have to deal with and I had a lot of those in 2017. It made me grow a lot and I think I needed those challenges. I got to connect with myself and learn about why I am the way I am and why I feel certain ways that I feel.
With that said 2017 has been really great for me. I am grateful for the people around me. I’m so grateful for my family and friends. I’m really grateful for my health. I’m grateful for having my own apartment and having an education. I’m grateful for music, nature, books, photography and just art in general. I’m really grateful for the blog and youtube channel. It makes me happy and it gives me space to focus on whatever I love in life. I’m so grateful for this year and I feel blessed. I hope you all had a great 2017 with a lot of memories, lessons and experiences too. Take Care <3