I felt like just writing and relfecting today. I’ve had a lot on my mind lately and I’m trying to like get a grip of all my thoughts. The other day when meditating I did a guided meditation which was about being strong. It was so inspiring and motivating and I also got to realize a lot about myself during this meditation and just life in general.
The meditation was about redefining being strong. I’ve for the most part of my life just thought being strong is holding everything together and just live with whatever happens and you know do my best to put a smile on my face and get going with life cause we don’t really know how much time we have here. Anything can happen like whenever you know… But yeah I thought keep on going is being strong, but through the meditation I realized: stepping back, taking a break, saying no, prioritizing my needs is actually way more stronger. That makes me a stronger person cause I am then respecting myself, my needs and taking care of myself… I guess that’s what being strong is.. And I dont think I’ve really looked at it that way..
The meditation was so beautiful. I feel like I always try to please everyone (I’m working on this and getting better..) but I feel like I dont know if it’s a cultural thing but it comes very natural to a lot of us to please everyone around us and then we forget ourselves in the process. Being strong is not holding everything together, not not-showing-emotions and pretending that everything is all good. Being strong means being raw, honest and carefree. I think that’s one of the things I struggle with the most: being carefree. I feel like it’s so hard but it’s actually just a choice I have to make: to choose to be carefree… to choose to really not care.. But you know it feels easier to say it than actually really honestly not care about external factors (working on this part). I’ve actually gotten really tired of listening to people around me telling me how to live my life and how to be as a person or where I should be in life… I know from the bottom of my heart that when people say these things it’s because they care and they want something good for me. So I do appreciate that part but I’m working on living for me, being free and care free and find peace within myself.
In the meditation she said being strong is being unapologetically yourself without caring about external factors. My mindset totally changed after listening to this and I got this epiphany.. I guess I just wanted to share the message with you guys if you struggle with anything similar. So lately I’m trying to listen more to myself, my inner self if that makes sense.
I’m not saying that I’m gonna stop smiling and not get going with life and you know just be on standby or anything like that. I still do believe it is strong to have a positive attitude towards life and see the good in everything and believe in good things no matter what happens. But I’m just realizing that it’s okay to not feel that well and it’s also strong of you to admit it and figure out life in our own phase. It’s okay if I don’t really feel like smiling 24/7, it’s okay if I don’t really wanna pretend like everything is good or it’s okay that I haven’t figured out life yet and I don’t know what I want in life.. I guess that part is actually the beauty of life: that we don’t know what’s coming next. It’s a beautiful thing that we should all enjoy and embrace.
So I know this post was kind of all over the place but just felt like sharing what I’ve been feeling and thinking lately <3 Take Care <3 Let’s all live a little..