As mentioned shortly in the previous post; In the second trimester, I finally started to enjoy the pregnancy. But then, the second scan didn’t go as planned or expected. We were told that the baby’s heart didn’t look the way it was supposed to, and we were referred to a specialist. That led to another hospital in a different city, and I also had to undergo an amniocentesis.
I completely broke down. They couldn’t tell us much… only that “something didn’t look right with the baby’s heart,” and I didn’t understand what that meant. It was vague, terrifying, and overwhelming. I was just devastated, because you don’t know how serious it is or what the consequences might be.
The good thing is, in Denmark, they’re extremely cautious when it comes to pregnancy. Even the slightest doubt, and they’ll make sure to refer you to specialists, run more tests, or do additional scans, which I’m really really grateful for. I truly appreciate that about the healthcare system here.
When we finally arrived at the hospital where the specialists were in Odense, we had to do another ultrasound. The scan lasted an hour, and the doctors were speaking in medical terms we didn’t fully understand. It was the longest hour of my life. I ended up crying silently while the doctor was doing the scan… it was just too overwhelming and I was panicking and anxious.
After what felt like forever, the doctor finally said, “Now I’ve seen what I needed and your baby is healthy and everything looks good.” And then I cried out loud and could finally breathe again. I told her I had been so scared, and I just broke down. I had been holding in my emotions for so long that when she said everything was okay, I had to let it all out. I could finally breathe again.
It turned out there was nothing to worry about. Once again, it was just the baby’s position that made it difficult for them to see everything properly in the scans to confirm that everything is all right and baby is ok.
After that, I really tried to enjoy my pregnancy again. I focused on staying positive and letting go of the fear, worries and negativity that had built up. Then I had to take a test and found out I had GDM; Gestational Diabetes. Even though I knew it’s a relatively common thing during pregnancy, I took it really hard. It felt like just one more thing to worry about. I was so frustrated. Pregnancy is supposed to be the perfect excuse to eat whatever you want and suddenly, I couldn’t. That sucked! (Not that I didn’t eat whatever I wanted before getting pregnant anyway, haha xD ) I had to cut sugar and eat very healthy and I honestly hated it at first. But over time, I got used to eating healthier, and looking back, I think it was kind of a blessing in disguise. I was forced to change my habits, to eat better, work out more and eventually, it actually felt really good. But I’m not gonna lie… it was tough. For someone like me, who eats chocolate every day and absolutely loves junk food, it was very, very tough. But the important and good thing was that baby was ok and I just had to keep on eating healthy, so baby will be ok.
But yeah, I have so much more to say about my GDM experience, so I’ll save that for a separate blog post. Stay tuned! :P haha
Looking back, the second trimester took me through some of the most emotionally intense moments of my pregnancy but it also taught me so much about resilience, trust, and adapting to the unexpected. From medical scares to lifestyle changes, it wasn’t the dreamy middle chapter I imagined… but it brought me closer to my baby, and to myself, in ways I didn’t expect
