Exactly one year ago today, we found out we were pregnant. From that moment, our whole life changed. I still can’t believe how quickly this year has gone by since the day we discovered we were expecting. I had taken a pregnancy test randomly, just because my period was late, and honestly, I did not expect it to be positive. The pregnancy was planned, but I thought it would take much longer for us to conceive, so the result came as a complete surprise. Considering our age and everything, I just assumed we might struggle, but nope! With that being said, the pregnancy itself wasn’t easy. I’ve shared my whole pregnancy journey here if you want to know more:
So as I was saying: today, one year ago, was the day our lives changed! When we saw the positive pregnancy test, we just couldn’t believe it. Both of us were like, “No, it can’t be true… this is too good to be true.” We didn’t let ourselves get too excited at first, because we both wanted it so badly and were afraid of being disappointed. Still, it’s a day I will never forget!
Fun fact: my husband said he wanted kids before he turned 35 when we started dating, and exactly three days before his 35th birthday, we got that positive test xD I swear he manifested it with the law of attraction! xD
It was such a tough and emotional time. During an early scan, we found out that one baby survived and one didn’t. It was such a difficult start, filled with mixed emotions; happiness about being pregnant, but also grief over the loss. Even though it was at a very early stage, it didn’t change the fact that there had been two little lives.
I talk more about that in my video, but for this blogpost, I mainly want to focus on where it all began <3
I remember this day so well. I was out with my friends, Soginy and Theenu. They both have kids. We were talking about life, kids, the future, the past, high school, etc. The three of us went to high school together, and that’s where we got to know each other. I can’t believe that was over 10 years ago now.
Anyway, we were chatting about life, and they were talking about being moms and parenting, while I was sitting there thinking: hmm, I haven’t got my period yet. I just had this strange feeling. I thought, when I get home, I want to take a pregnancy test. It was so random. I was only a few days late, so I didn’t put too much thought into it but I just had this feeling that I had to take a test.
I took the test pretty casually, just like, let’s check, and when it came out positive I froze. I was like, what?! No, no, no… it can’t be true. I remember this mix of excitement and fear. I didn’t want to let myself get too carried away in case I ended up disappointed.
When my husband came home, I said, uhm, we need to talk, as if something was wrong, just to freak him out a little (cause why not, haha). Then I showed him the test. He froze too, holding back his excitement, and we agreed to test again in a few days.
I ended up taking tests for 7–8 days, with gaps in between, and every single one was positive. Later, because of some bleeding, we went for an early scan. We were scared we might be losing the baby (I’ve shared more about this in my video). But when the scan confirmed that I really was pregnant, we finally let ourselves feel excited. Still, during the first month we kept things very low-key, we were scared, and it just felt too good to be true. That was actually tough; we both struggled with just enjoying and being happy, cause we wanted it to so bad. I think it’s something we both need to work on; letting go of the fear and allowing ourselves to be happy and enjoy these moments to the fullest.
Now let me share a bunch of pictures from this journey, to cherish it just a little extra xD
Pregnancy test 3rd September, 4th September and 10th September:
Scanning:
Selfies and stuff:
Throwback moment:
What a beautiful journey it has been. It was definitely not easy, but it was all worth it. I would do it all over again for our little guy <3 I will forever cherish these pregnancy moments. I’ve learned and grown so much, and I feel so blessed and grateful
