I jus turned 34 some weeks ago and got to celebrate me being another year older! :D I love birthdays! I love celebrating. There are times where I love to celebrate big with friends and all but I also have times in my life where I just want to celebrate with family at that is it. This year was probably one of those years: I had no specific plans beside spending time with my sister and Thannu and of course my husband and our baby. I think this year, since having a baby, being a first time mom and all, it just made sense to not celebrate it big, cause we are tired XD haha. So I dont want to stress about prepping and stuff.
Anyways, what we did was eating good food and cake and talking and it was perfect! I loved my birthday! Having good conversations and just good food is just perfect. Next day we went out to eat and then we had plans to go to another birthday party and the day after, we had plans with some other friends and their kids who I love so so much, had decorated the house and made me presents. It was so cute!! I’ve never in my life felt so much loved like with those two kids! Their love is just so special. They are just so special to me. I love them so so much and I feel so blessed and grateful that our baby have them in his life as well.
When I turned 30 I remember I had this whole crisis; I’m not where I want to be or who I want to be. Since I thought that I would have been married and have kids and all by 25, and there I was 30 year old and didn’t know what I was doing with my life, single and frustrated xD haha.
4 years later; I’m happily married and have a baby, I’m a mother and a wife and I love my job and I love my family and friends and I think, for the first time in my life since I was 14 years old, I feel satisfied and content with my life. Last I felt this way was 20 years ago. That’s crazy. Life is not perfect and there is so much work to do but I’m really happy about where I am at life right now and how things have turned out. I feel so grateful and blessed <3
I’m not saying happiness is being married and having a family, but it has been a dream of mine for a long time and I was afraid that I would never get it or experience it, and that’s why I feel so content about everything right now.
With that said, I do have some things to work on. Everything as external stuff is perfect and I’m settled and from the outside everything looks good as I want it to but… I’m not satisfied with how my health is; my body I guess. I think the whole physical aspect of my health actually. My goal is now to regulate my nervesystem and respect my body and take care of my mind, body and soul. I haven’t been taking care of my health the way I should and I haven’t been taking it seriously either. I have a baby now and I want to be present, grounded and feel energetic as well, and for that to happen I need to take my health a lot more serious. I want to eat healthy, get better sleep, workout and just take care of myself. To be honest; lately I feel like crap when it comes to health. I eat whatever I crave and especially when I’m stressed, I eat a lot more unhealthy and I dont care at that point. This is something I really want to work on. I dont want my kid to be like me so I want to change for myself but also for him.
Anyways, now let me show you some moments of celebration:
